Forever sweet sixteen ♥

20 April 2012, Friday

Turned on the laptop to watch the vow. Rachel McAdams *swoon*

Today.

You’re mad at me for going out with lia instead of you? Uh hello so it’s okay for you to ditch me for your friends but not ok when I want to spend time with my friends instead of you? GO MARRY A CANOE. Oh so you’re mad that I took so long to reply you? I’M HAVING A MERRY FUN TIME WITH MY FRIEND AND NOT YOU. Deal with it. Take it like a man.

I am NOT backing down this time. NO Y, NO YOU WILL NOT GIVE IN TO MEN AND THEIR SELFISH UNFAIR WAYS. BE STRONG. I always tend to psycho myself into thinking that it’s my fault when I have a right to be angry at him too.

’ Forget it ’ ?

Whatever. Let’s forget you for a while.

18 April 2012, Wednesday

Hello, I miss you quite terribly :(

Thought I’d be alright without you…I’m not. I need you :(

16 April 2012, Monday

Gotta beat that bitch!!!

(New source of motivation)

lol

Also, I need to stop getting sidetracked/distracted.

WE need to stop.

We can do this <3

12 April 2012, Thursday

Take comfort in the knowledge that this is the hardest part.

Giving up now would mean that you didn’t think the good was worth going through the bad.

11 April 2012, Wednesday

Don’t know how to go about doing this anymore. The thing is, as the smart one said, it’s only going to get harder from here. Can’t get anything right? Dafuq.

You were beating around the damn bush and making up excuses here and there and it just so happened that my dearest friend texted me at that moment to meet tomorrow morning and then I texted you back that I’ll see you on thursday then because she has something important to tell me and then you go about throwing a hissy fit and all. It’s not that I don’t want to meet you but one day apart won’t kill us would it???????

And frankly speaking, I am quite enjoying this solitude ok so like suck it up

/tuesday night

7 April 2012, Saturday

Am incredibly annoyed. Poker face ON for the whole of today.

This morning I went to school for my weekly math tuition with my cute tuition teacher who has a cute accent. P joined my group today because her group ditched her…annoying annoying ANNOYING. Came home to the m scolding me for leaving my laptop on my bed……..k. I don’t want to be rude, been too much of that for most of my life, so I’ll just learn to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts in.

This week was fine until I pissed g off on wednesday. Talked it out on thursday so we’re alright. Glad that we have a 7 day break from each other (though I know I’m going to regret saying this next week). We both just need a time-out. Been so occupied with my relationship, I haven’t been focused on work. Sacrifices, right? He’s important to me, our relationship is important to me, I don’t want to lose either so there has to be some give and take. A Levels are important to me too but so is he.

PW results on monday I can’t even……………..

Faith

Hope

Love

I hope everything will really be ok. Running out of tears.